~ Bruckners Gottesgblaube ~
When reading about Bruckners personality and temperament it seems odd that he wrote those grand symphonies. However he did. His ‘Gottesglaube’’ was a guiding compass troughout his life, also when he was on the brink of insanity and had to be admitted to an asylum. Bruckner had the feeling that he might not be good enough as a composer and always looked for social security instead of fully focusing on his path as a composer. Maybey he would have benefited from having a bit more anarchy in him, like Wagner.
This ‘Gottesglaube’ is the core element of his music. When you listen to the finales of the first and final movements of his symphonies, you almost literally ascend. The music goes up, and up and up and most of the time suddenly stops. Death? Resolution? Redemption? Not one sided for sure, but fascinating nonetheless.
His works are often described as ‘cathedrals’ because of the massive style and length, but I feel them to be more lush and personal. Bruckner stands much closer to Mahler in that sense. His symphonies are the musical expression of self emergence. It is constant pursuit with despair, happiness and extacy along the way.